So, I kind of have a big birthday coming up...one that will change my profile description...and I am not sure how I feel about it...part of me thinks it is no big deal, the other part thinks HOLY SHIT! Am I where I thought I would be, have I done what I wanted to in my 20s, should I feel older? Yikes, this is kind of freaking me out. I'm trying to hold on to the "its not that big a deal" but its getting harder. It is making me reflect on everything...jobs, life, kids, friends, etc. I think its good, in the long run, but my head is spinning...so much so that I've been a bit emotional. Last week was WEIRD...I totally lost it on the first day of my period. I blamed it on the fact that I started - not only the PMS bit, but the actual fact I had started (not what you want when you're trying to procreate - yes that's a whole nother story I haven't shared on here). But, I think maybe its been this whole birthday thing, maybe underneath it all, I am scared. Maybe really scared, because as I reflect, I'm not sure I am where I thought I would be. And so I am left pondering this big birthday....
I'm sure there will be more posts of this sort in the next couple weeks as I approach the "big X-0" but I thought I would just put this out there. I may regret it, but its out there now...
On to brighter things...I better start thinking about what I want for my birthday........
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I bought an ovulation kit and used that - it worked wonders!
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